Note: This post took me a few weeks to write, I completed it yesterday at work and then last night we had another ‘bump in the road.’ After dealing with that as best as we could we got to enjoy a few moments of our girls laughing and giggling together sitting on the rocking chair. Those are the moments I need to focus on.
2 kids and a dog has been my dream for as long as I can remember.
Right now I’m living that dream.
Those times when you know you just can’t get it all done without sacrificing something important. Those days when you just need a moment to yourself, and you can’t even get in the shower.
Those times you just sit on the floor holding your girls crying.
Those days you don’t think you can do it 1 minute longer.
Your not alone, I’ve been there, I’m sure I will be there again. With my history of anxiety and depression, post partum depression was a real concern but thankfuly I didn’t get to that point. However there were a few times I felt like I was on the brink, I was starting fights with my husband just because it felt good to yell. I didn’t realize then that I was simply releasing pent up emotions in an unhealthy way.
Thankfuly I have a very supportive group around me (including my midwife.) Who helped me realize that it was actually normal. Hormones are crazy and they cause you to do and think crazy things, and that is normal.
So today I want to encourage you, I still don’t see my world as perfect, I never will. Each day is a new challenge and a new adventure and by looking for the positives I’m finding more of them. The simple pleasure of picking up toys, even if I know that the play room will only stay clean until naptime is over. The enjoyment of cooking a healthy meal for them and knowing they are getting the nutriants they need. I remind myself everyday that:
I love my imperfect life.
How about you? Tell me some of the ‘little things’ you love about your life.