Last night I was editing photos and watching some TV when an episode of Say Yes to the Dress Atlanta came on. This episode was focused on a Military wife who lost her husband in battle and was getting ready to marry another Marine. Wow! One of the things they focused on was the emotions of picking out a second wedding dress and how hard that was for her. It was an outward showing of the end of that part of her life.
In December of 2007 I became a cancer widow. I was 24 when my first husband passed away and life would never be the same. In 2009 I started my own dress shopping. I remember that feeling of excitement and sadness all at the same time…it was honestly a very confusing day.
Starting over was one of the hardest and best things I’ve ever done. Mac has been the most amazing and the most frustrating thing in my life. I don’t mean frustrating as a bad thing either, he has challenged my faith, my fears, my heart, and my money obsessed mind. I went into this marriage thinking I ‘knew it all’ since I had been married before and quickly found out how much of life I hadn’t dealt with since we were so focused on cancer.
Now Mac and I are setting out on our next adventure….parenthood. Apple could arrive any moment now and our life will never be the same. I can’t wait to see what happens, all because we were willing to start over.