As I’m reading chapter 3 of this book (When I Lay my Isaac Down By Carol Kent) I realized I’m working on two different situations where I have to “Lay my Isaac Down” Carol has two catagorys she groups the “Isaac Experiences” into. Here are mine.
- Losses catagory: Terminal Illness/Death of a loved one
- Personal choices catagory: Letting go expectations of myself.
But the two are very related. The personal expectations started resonably, I’ve always looked out for others but within reason. Now because of the illness of my first husband they escalated in to over-drive again compelty appropriate. Since his death however they haven’t gone back to the normal level.
So I know what I need to let go, but where to start? Well I think in the first category I’ve got it down pat. Carol talks about tears bringing us closer to God. Buy crying out to him we are opening our hears and allowing God to comfort us. The second category is a little harder though. Giving up my emotions is one thing but giving up my control is another. I need the constant daily reminder that as it says in the book:
And in the process of releasing, we find ourselves deeply loved. The love is born from within Him, not from what He sees in us. That’s a good thing, because we know we’re not worth all that much. But in His eyes, we are worth everything. He has already shown us how much. He gave the greatest heart sacrifice known to man — His only son.