~*~ Today is the last day for the Stunt Puppy Giveaway, it ends tonight (10/08/10) at 9 PM CST~*~
Do you ever feel like you are running out of something? I have lately time, energy, patience, smiles. I’m just worn out. I don’t even know what to say here to be honest. Life was getting hard, it wasn’t bad, in fact it hasn’t been this good in a while. And yet I find myself sad, depressed. There I said it, the word I never wanted to admit. I don’t know why, it doesn’t make any sense, but really does it ever? Isn’t that the point of depression? Your down when it doesn’t make sense? It makes sense to be depressed for a period when the situation warrants it (like when Mark died) but this isn’t that. This is feeling down when life is good, and I don’t know why.
Yesterday I think I had a break through though, after some talking to Mac for a while and a doctor we figured out that I have insomnia. This may be a big reason why I haven’t been able to deal with life. I’ve gotten sick easier than I ever have, I’m emotional, depressed and un-motivatived and I’m sick and tired of it. Literally. So I slept (sort of) a good chunk of yesterday and took a med to help me sleep. It worked! I woke up this morning (late) more awake then I’ve been in a long time. I’m excited, very excited. I can’t wait to see how good life is with ample sleep.
Well that’s all for today I have a lot to catch up on.
I’ve just recently figured out that I haven’t been sleeping well for quite sometime, so last night