I noticed something today(Friday 5/28/10). I feel like a woman, a ‘real’ wife. I know this sounds like an odd statement but I never really have. When Mark and I got married I was his wife no doubt, but it was anything but normal. We were 19 both in collage and having a lot of fun. Then right when we would be transitioning into a time of ‘normal’ marriage he got sick. Then I became a wife/_______ caregiver, comforter, nurse, maid, chauffeur, errand runner and so on. I never really had a chance to develop the ‘womanly’ side of me.
It hit me today, I’m a ‘real’ wife now, I feel like a woman….and I like it. I’ve worn 2 skirts this week, because I wanted to. I’ve chosen outfits for home that are not only comfy (my top priority) but look good too. I’m enjoying something I’ve always seen as work. I like playing with my make-up, and making sure my nails look good. I’ve even started to pay attention to the beauty products that I use. I want to make sure it is as natural and as eco responsible as it can be w/o going broke. I’m talking care of my body by working out and I’m watching what I eat (even healthy foods can have a lot of calories.)
Mac has been amazing in the development of this. He hasn’t pushed for me to be more girly or to look nicer. He just encouraged me to take care of myself and as I started to develop and interest he would keep encouraging me. Telling me I looked nice and he liked my make-up or my outfit. It is amazingly wonderful.
I know that looks aren’t the most important thing in life. But to be honest its nice to be able to care about it. I like being a woman. This is more than looks its about feeling like myself and knowing who that person is. I feel good, life is good, God is great!